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MOVING

Wed, 21 Feb 2007 06:43:11 GMT

Hi! haha... I'm just updating to say that I'm blogging HERE now. I'll still be opening this account to check on my friends though...

And I didn't want my prom entry to be the first one that I see when I open my LJ. haha...

PROM NIGHT!

Wed, 15 Feb 2006 11:04:24 GMT

Super late update for the prom, but I'll put it here anywaaaaay... haha...

* Club Filipino
* 12 FEB 2006
* 6:30 PM

At David's... I was surprised when David's was packed with Kostkans! haha...

Remember how I was really freaking out during that day? I actually turned out sooooo much better when I got there!

I picked up Oscar and Charrie at Burgundy, but where was Caoile? We called him up, but his sister told us he alredy left, "5 pa siya umalis". So we left without him. Both Oscar and Cha told me that I look so different in a gown and make-up, not like the "kid" they see everyday at school. Owwwsssss?! haha...

So when we got there, guess who we saw? Caoile! haha...

I was really happy to see all of my friends looking their best for the prom! They all looked to good in their formal attires, even the ones I couln't imagine! haha...

The program began in few minutes. Our principal gave her opening remarks, then I delivered the batch history. The turn-over ceremony was next, followed by the class prophecies of Zet [4A] and Gabby [4B]. Top 12 of the bart exams huh? haha... After the prophecies, dinner time! Then dancing! I had sooooo much fun dancing, especially with my friends. Too bad I wasn't able to dance with [his name here]... I felt so bad about it, but I'm okay already... And I ended up being such a jerk to my date, I'd rather not give details... Just that I made almost all the decisions and when he asked to dance I refused because I was tired... I was a jerk wasn't I? haha... First dance was with Marlex last dance was with Jay.

The awards!

* Prom King - Tyron Enriquez
* Prom Queen - Geline Ong
* Prom Prince - Mark [don't know last name, sorry]
* Prom Princess - Aika Shiomoto
* Prince Charming - [don't know name either, sorry again]
* Cinderella - Margarita Guerra
* Couple of the Night - Pio Sevilla and Patricia Velasco
* Early Birds - Kenneth Agustin and [arggh I don't know her name, sorry again]

When the dancing was over, we sang the Kostka Hymn and the Old lang Syne and it was over. Me, Aya, and her sister were the last ones to leave Club Filipino. We were there even when all the light were out! Scary... haha...

The prom was a great experience for all of us, too bad it comes only once in a lifetime. It's really funny remembering how shocked we were when Tyron was the Prom King, how loudly we laughed when Margarita was Cinderella, and how it even continues now in school! haha... I loved our JS Prom, it's definitely a night I'll remember for the rest of my life!

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BELATED HAPPY VALENTINE'S!

PANICPANICPANIC...RELAX?

Sun, 12 Feb 2006 05:42:03 GMT

Can I get out of this?

Whaaaaah...

Still tense about the prom later?

Have to go over the batch history...

Buh bye...

Wish me luck!

CAN I STOP TIME... NOW?!

Sat, 11 Feb 2006 14:33:22 GMT

I DON'T WANT A PROM ANYMOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORE!!!

WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!

I think I'm gonna crack up!!!

Why?

I can't explain at all! So so so so so anxious...

Maybe the pressure...

Maybe the other reason that I DO NOT want to talk about...

Maybe perhaps the batch history?

MAYBE ALL OF IT?!

Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!

It's really something I can't explain...

I know it's all in my head, but there's just something inside me that keeps going "something's gonna go wrong, i feel it" over and over...

What if I make a total fool of myself tomorrow?

Good thing me, Cha, Oscar, and Caoile are going there together... Picking them up in Burgundy at 5...

Will I go to the after party?

Panicking NOW!!!

HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELP!!!

This will be a BIG relief once it's over!

Pray for me pleeeeeeeeease?

And... Whoever you are... I wanted you to be my prom date... And I still do...

EXCITED? DON'T CARE?

Fri, 10 Feb 2006 12:24:14 GMT

The prom's just a few days away...

Excited? Dunno... It would be really nice seeing everyone in formalattire acting like ladies and gentlemen, but... I don't know... I don't feel the excitement at all... Probably because... Nevermind... Again with the dates issue...

So anyway... I won't feel totally alone because Cha, Oscar, and Caoile are comming along with me in my car. We'll get there together. Picking them up in Burgundy at around 5:30...

We practiced for the prom proceedings a while ago... I do hope I get the delivery of the batch history right...

My days of panic are starting... AGAIN.

Whaaah pray for me, okay? heehee...

I UPDATED?!

Thu, 09 Feb 2006 13:38:11 GMT

HELP! I need someone to save me from this nightmare! AYOKO NAAAAA!!! O badtrip na ako, magtatagalog na ako... Badtrip talaga tong araw na to... Sabi na kapalit ng lahat ng masayang nangyayari sa akin isang buong araw ng KARMA... Kaasar... Sarap talaga manapak na tao... O ito na nangyari...

Una yung ID ko...

Kala ko naiwan ko sa bahay pero yun pala nakaipit lang dun sa mga papel sa paper bag ko... Kaso nung nakarent na ako ng ID dun ko lang nahanap... Sayang 20 pesos ko... Ay nako...

Sunod phone ko...

Kala ko nawala sa school kaso kung nahulog yun eh di sana narinig ko kaya tumawag ako sa bahay pagkatapos ng assembly... Pagkatawag ko sabi ng mom ko nakita niya sa may hagdanan ng bahay namin kaya medyo
narelieve ako dun... Tapos pagbalik ko sa classroom nagsimula na yung long test sa physics kaya nagmadali nanaman ako... Sayang oras ko...

Tapos nung Math...

May mali akong nasabi nasabihan ko ng masama si David nung nag offer siya maging partner ko... Sorry David...

Tapos nung Guidance...

Yung mga letters namin para sa teachers namin sa 14 di pa tapos kaya pinag pasa-pasahan na kanina... Tapos yun pala LAHAT ng teachers gagawan pero advisers lang yung sinabi sa amin dati... Badtrip... Nadoble tuloy ginawa namin...

Isa pa nung Guidance din...

Yung mga lecheng pictures para dun sa illustration board ng caricatures ng 4B... Pinagdikit ba naman pictures namin ni Ken... Nakiusap ako ng maayos na ayusin kaso aong sinabi nila?!

"It's permanent!"
"Di na pwedeng galawin yan!"

Asar talaga! Nakikiusap na nga ng maayos di pa pagbigyan... Nagalit pa ako sa mga taong akala ko "kaibigan" ko... Tapos di ko naman inaano bigla na lang ganyan sila sa akin... Asar kayo... Wag niyo akong lapitan... Tatandaan niyo yan... Asar kayo sa buhay ko... OO KAYO! Lalo kang nunal ka... Tirisin ko yang nunal mo eh...

Tapos yung mga memories ng pagkanta ko nung fair bumalik nanaman...

I hated it... Oo alam ko na na pangit yung performance ko... Sobrang kinabahan kaya ako kaya di ako nakakilos na maayos... Lam mo yung feeling na ganun? Parang frozen... Naramdaman mo na siguro yun diba? Ang hirap... Sila kaya sa pwesto ko... Tapos I was asking a certain someone about it... It went like this...

"Do you think my performance was really bad?"
"Well, _____ and his/her friends were laughing... And it sounded like the laugh na masama yung dating."

"I didn't ask them... Opinion mo tinatanong ko."
"Masasabi ko lang you were not good. Yun lang."

HELLO?! Ang sakit kaya nun! Parang sinabi niya na pangit rin eh, nirephrase lang! Di niya alam pero kaya ako nagwalk-out dahil rin sa kanya... SALAMAT AH! And to think I believed I had talent... Poor me...

Pero salamat rin Margarita kung binabasa mo to... You really made me feel a lot better. Sorry kung bigla akong umalis... Sana talaga kasama ka namin... Nakosencya tuloy ako... Siya lang nakinig sa dilemma ko
kanina eh... Tenkchu Margie!

Sencya na talaga...
Bad mood talaga ako ngayon... Sorry sa mga matatamaan jan...
Bahala kayo sa buhay niyo...
La na akong paki...

GO KOSTKA QC!!!

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 11:51:09 GMT

CONGRATS TO THE KOSTKA QC BASKETBALL TEAM!!! Ang galing niyo!!!
Close fight, but I forgot the score. hehe... We led by 5 points. It was fun watching the game, and definitely one of the more memorable days for me - both in a good and bad way... I 'm not really in the mood to type right now, but CONGRATULATIONS AGAIN TO OUR BASKETBALL TEAM!!!

QUITE RECOVERED... MAYBE...

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 15:23:13 GMT

To be honest, I still feel a little bad about what happened to me when I took the UPCAT... Sure there's still other schools, but this is The University of the Philippines! I really wanted to get in, but looks like it's impossible... Lalo na nung nalaman ko all my other friends said it was okay angd they answered almost all or some even finished some tests... Naisip ko tuloy 'ang bobo ko talaga' kasi 18/60 lang nasagutan ko sa Math, 28/60 sa Science, yung Language Proficiency may di ako nasagutang 8 tapos 30 naman sa Reading Comprehension... How much more in the other schools like Ateneo and La Salle where the entrance tests are supposed to be harder? Am I flunking the tests there too?

I'M NOT PASSING THE UPCAT... I JUST KNOW IT... I SHOULD HAVE NEVER HOPED FOR EVEN A SLIM CHANCE OF PASSING...

NO HOPES IN GETTING INTO UP

Sat, 06 Aug 2005 12:15:21 GMT

Long time since last update hasn't it? hehe... Well I've been caught up in research and studying for the entrance test in UP lately that I don't have time to update. Anyway, just so you know, I hate the past few weeks... There's actually KARMA PART II AND III but just to sum it up I've lost a lot of stuff, and most of all... BUKING NA TALAGA AKO... my classmates know, the faculty knows, but I don't care because there's nothing I can do anyway... Bahala na...

Well anyway as I was saying... I HAVE NO HOPE WHATSOEVER TO GET INTO MY FIRST PRIORITY SCHOOL... I just know it... It's not yet official, but I KNOW I'm not getting into UP... It just disappoints me to know that I've been studying for this exam since summer and what comes out in the test? Only about 6-10 items of the stuff I studied... I ended up leaving 8 unanswered questions in language proficiency and 30 in reading comprehension AND what else? I ended up answering only 28 items in Science and I think 18 in Math... DON'T GET ME WRONG. It's not the UPCAT I didn't like. I just hated the idea that the stuff I've been studying and mastering all this time didn't come out like I thought they would... The test was challenging and really proves that only the best get inside UP. Anyway... There's still other schools I'm applying for... Hope I can pass in any big school...

KARMA

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 11:36:57 GMT

Not that I hate this day, but I'm under really bad KARMA...

First of all I found out that we had homework in Health this morning, but I didn't do it becuase I didn't know it was due today. So there I was rushing again trying to finish the homework... I borrowed a pencil amd someone borrowed my Red pen. To cut it short, I lost the pencil and my pen got lost too... After that, I noticed that the envelope I usually put my class record and test papers in wasn't in my bag. I figured it was in the library becuase it was the last place I went to before I went home. I asked permission to Sir Sanchez if it was okay to get my stuff in the library. He said okay so I went. The first person I saw in the library really put a smile on my face, I saw *hahahahaha*!!! Basta! hehe... I asked if he saw Ms. Cimafranca was around. He said she might be downstairs. When I saw her, she said my things were on her desk. I got my things, and when I was about to leave *hahahahaha* said "Okay na miss?" KILIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIG!!! hehe... Yeah malabo yung reason, pero kinikilig na ako niyang hehe... Well back to reality for me when I got back to the classroom though, we had a long test, and I don't think I did so well... I didn't study because I was soooooo exhausted from the 15-minute run and the flexed arm hang yesterday that I slept the minute I got home. So anyway, I hated myself for not studying... During lunch, I couldn't explain what happened, but suddenly some of the guys were in the table my barkada usually eats in. There was no space in the table because of all the guys seated there, so our barkada wasn't together during lunch... I was sad because I wasn't used to not having lunch with them... Well anyway, I'll skip right to Health. When we were about to go down for our pictures, Sir Sanchez told one of my classmates to bring something to the faculty. Well, I volunteered to got, but instead got an anexpected reply... Our conversation went something like this:

"Sir ako na lang po."
"Wag na, si Gian na lang. Tsaka wala naman siya dun, Alam ko kung sino hinahabol mo!"
"Sir pero sinong nagsabi? Paano mo nalaman?"
"Ako pa! Di ko na kailangan ng magsasabi sa akin, I KNOW EVERYTHING THAT GOES ON IN 4B! Wala kayong matatago sa akin!"

My mouth dropped open when I heard that... I thought that wasn't out yet! Is really that obvious?! After Health we had our pictures taken for our ID's. All I can say is HIGH-TECH NA KOSTKA!!! hehehe... We just had the pictures taken, and get them the same day. Our adviser didn't give them out at once though, he needed a night to laugh at our pictures! hehe... I didn't like my picture, I looked like an addict! hehe... After that, my friends and I went to MCDO (usual routine). Again I was shocked because you don't usually find teachers sitting in the waiting area, but *hahahahaha* was there! So at least before I left, I had a quick glimpse of him! hehe... Oh yeah, I won't go into details, but another bunch of unlucky things that happed to me were I forgot my size 2, The zipper of my skirt was jammed closed, so I had a hard time removing my skirt, nagtae yung ballpen ko kaya puno ng ink yung kamay ko, natakot ako sa girsl washroom kasi may ipis na lumilipad sa loob, at di nanaman ako nakatraing sa takewondo... Ay grabe...

Well that's where my day ends. Oh yeah, I've been so busy lately so I don't have time even for going online. This happened yesterday pero super KILIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIG ulit! hehe... Yesterday, Aya and I were supposed to get our recommendation form from Ms. Beazon. We went to the faculty, and guess what? *hahahahaha* was sitting outside the faculty! Me and Aya were singing "A Whole New World" because of the Disney songs of 4A! hehe... Anyway, *hahahahaha* stopped me and asked me if I was a choir member and if I knew if Ms. Caparas was in the Music room. I said I didn't know and he said okay so me and Aya went to see Ms. Beazon. When we got our recommendations and went out of the faculty room, I stopped for a while to fix my things so Aya was ahead of me a bit. When I started walking, *hahahahaha* said "BYE!" to me! KILIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIG!!! hehe... Sinabi ko namang malabo ako diba?! hehe...

BASTA! KARMA TOTALLY SUCKS! hehe...

THE HECK I CARE... HAS TIME TRAVELLING BEEN INVENTED YET?!

Fri, 08 Jul 2005 10:50:42 GMT

Okay I'm telling you this is going to be a REALLY long entry... Just have to let everything out... Hope you'll let me... Anyway I didn't update for the past 3 days because I needed time to think things over... So here's what happened.

The qualified representatives were called to the Guidance Office to discuss matters regarding the Student Council. To cut it short, I ACTUALLY HAD A CHANCE OF RUNNING FOR STUDENT COUNCIL PRESIDENT... This was good news to me because I've always wanted to run for that position. And I couldn't even imagine myself saying "I want to run."... It was flattering that everyone in the room was supportive of my descision, but I felt something after that - something uncomfortable... I had a horrible feeling after saying that... I mean, what could be wrong right? This was what I wanted, but how come I didn't feel good about it? I can't really explain what happened when the meeting was over. My knees were shaking, I wanted to keep quiet, and I found myself staring into nothing... It bothered me a lot. Sure I know there would be students (and maybe even teachers) who would support me, but again the pesimistic side of me kicked in and said "There were a lot who hated me for the past years for doing my job as a Beadle because I'm strict, and they even wanted to IMPEACH me... How would I gain their support now?"... So starting then I thought of all the pressure - homework, entrance tests, being an honor student, and other stuff... I then told myself "Okay, I'm quitting... I WANT OUT..."

The next day (yesterday) my mind still wasn't fully set on running for president or not. I was still so confused, it was a if my feelings and thoughts were mixed up that I didn't know what to do... I hated what I was feeling. When classes ended the running presidents, me and Vanessa, were called to the Guidance Office for further insructions from Mr. de Guzman, Mrs. Eusinco, and Ms. Reyes. Until then I still didn't know what to do... Would I run, or would I back out? Would I be able to handle the responsibility? Would I be able to balance everything? Then I finally spit it out, in the middle of the meeting I said "May kasalanan ako, AYOKO NA TUMAKBO..."... I saw the look of disappointment on their faces... I couldn't help but feel guilty... They saw it in an optimistic way though, they said it would be another good challenge because THEY WILL BE GETTING VANESSA'S COMPETITION FROM THE THIRD YEAR STUDENTS... When I heard that, I felt much much guiltier than before... I mean, what would my batchmates say?! They'd hate me for that! So when the meeting was over, I went down to update my barkada and other friends. After I told them everything, they kept on sermoning me and asking questions or saying discouraging thiings like "Why did you allow that to happen?! Di pwede 3rd year! WHAT ABOUT THE BATCH DIGNITY?!" or "Mr. Sanchez will get mad at you!" or even the worst which really left a mark like "I thought it was your dream. The chance was there, why did you let go of it?" After hearing everything I couldn't help but break down in tears... The guilt I felt was enough, but knowing people didn't like my descision made me feel worse... It was a good thing Kim was there to cheer me up, she asked our batchmates if they'd vote for me if I ran. To tell you the truth, I was shocked and at the same time so touched beacuse the same people who used to hate me for being strict were the same people who wanted me to be president... It felt so good to hear that because all this time I thought people hated me because I was doing my job, but they didn't, they even appreciated what I did... If I only knew that before, I might not have backed out knowing that more supported me... When I felt better I wanted to see Ms. Reyes to talk to her about my concerns at the moment, but she had already left so I just went to the waiting area to talk to my friends. When I got there, I got the news that Mau wanted to run for President. Honestly I felt upset but at the same time happy for her. Upset because I wanted to reconsider my descision, but happy because it was too late to say I wanted to run again anyway so the best thing to do was support my friends who I know both would do a great job if they'd put their hearts into it. They said that Mau's running is FINAL. So I just had to accept the reality... But to tell you the truth... I went home with a heavey heart, did y homework with no other thought but my guilt, and went to bed with a broken dream... I FELT LIKE SUCH A LOSER...

Today I woke up NUMB. I felt like crying again, but it seemed like the tears wouldn't rush down... I went to school with a long face and not knowing what to expect... I felt worse than than yesterday... I really coulnd't contain myself so I went to Ms. Reyes and asked if I could talk to her. She said okay, she'll pull me out of class during a minor subject. Thet's exactly what she did, she pulled me out of class during Computer class and we talked until recess. I won't go into details anymore, but after that I felt much better. I felt better about my descision not to run, but still there was a part of me that said I shouldn't have backed out in the first place... Of course I still felt a bit upset because I LOST A SHOT AT A DREAM... I TOTALLY REGRET I EVER SAID I DIDN'T WANT TO RUN... If could only turn back time I'd correct my bad descision... Until now I still feel bad, but much better than before. I feel better about my descision. After all, there'd be other chances right?

I'M DONE... Man it feels sooooo much better that I let all thet out! Oh yeah, guess what?! HE SAID HI!!! hehe... It's weird but I have a BIG crush on one of the teachers in school! hehe... I was going up the stairs to submit my Beadle's report, and he was on his way down. Our eyes met then he said hi!!! AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!! KILIG!!! Told you it would sound weird! hehe... But that surely cheered me up!

So I end this entry saying...

IF YOU WERE GIVEN SHOT AT SOMETHING YOU WANT, GO FOR IT! THIS IS A ONCE IN A LIFTIME CHANCE. DON'T LET YOURSELF BE OVERPOWERED BY YOUR FEELINGS. YOU WOULDN'T WANT TO END UP IN TEARS BECAUSE OF A SINGLE MISTAKE THAT RUINED YOUR DREAMS."

HAHA

Wed, 29 Jun 2005 11:00:11 GMT

Man am I tired from whaat we did in PE! We did bent-knee curl-ups and chair push-ups. I'll continue next time, I'm too lazy. hehe...

WHY BOTHER

Tue, 28 Jun 2005 12:12:16 GMT

This day actually turned out better than I expected! hehe...

For one thing, THERE WAS NO FILIPINO! That meant something BIG to me - NO HUMILIATION! YES! hehe...

Another thing, kinilig ulit ako! Kanina nananahimik lang ako nung prayer time after lunch tapos gulat ako kasi may nangiliti sa akin. Yun pala si *tooooot* Wala lang. hehe... But that didn't last long because I later on found out who he was attracted to. Yup, according to my sources he's just attracted but he doesn't actually have a crush on her. YEAH WHATEVER! Sure... Maybe I was in low spirits then, even until my taekwondio class... But after a talk with Zet everything was okay! I guess that was the first time ever I had a long conversation with her. hehe...

Oh yeah, there's was another incident I found funny but Aya totally hated it. Ms. Caparas was teasing Aya and Marco! Mr. Sanchez was there also and after what he saw, he told Marco that he had some explaining to do! hehe... I thought Mr. Sanchez left it all there but I was wrong, He then told me to go with him to the faculty to get our projects then asked me about Aya and Marco! hehe...

I wish this week will always be like this day or even better!

BAD TURNED GOOD

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 13:12:09 GMT

So there... Congrats to those who will read this entry because after reading this they will more or less have an idea about the guy I'm talking about. hehe... Well anyway... I HATED HOW MY DAY STARTED. I woke up feeling awful - I had a sore throat, an aching head, and a running nose... I lost both my ballpen and my ponytail later on too... I also did my English homework at the last minute because I didn't know it was supposed to be written on a size 1. One other thing, during Filipino class, I got soooooo embarassed... Tinawag ba naman akong 'dwende' sa klase?! Well that's how it started. I hated it!

But things went way better after that. I'll go straight to the juicy parts! During Art class, kilig kasi hinihiram ni *tooooot* yung mga materials ko (oo alam kong malabo hehe...)! After I finished my work, I had a talk with a classmate. I reminded him/her about our deal that he/she will ask *tooooot* who *tooooot* likes... Yah... Pretty dumb, as if he/she is really gonna tell me! hehe... So anyway... While my classmate and I were talking, *tooooot* kept on distracting so we couldn't talk properly. Later on, I teased one of my classmates whom I pair-up with *tooooot* because they are always together. WRONG MOVE. I shouldn't have done that... She then teased me back and said "Kaw nga jan selos." and I said "Pinapasa mo nanaman sa akin, kaw may gusto jan eh."... It would have bee okay, thing is... HE HEARD EVERYTHING... Another seatmate than said "Tumigil nga kao jan, naririnig kayo ni *tooooot*. Kanina pa kaya siya nakikinig sa inyo!"... OH NO!!! Another crush about to be exposed because another mistake I made!!! Hmph!

I attended choir practice then too. After that my friends and I had a chat with Ms. Caparas, our Math teacher. It was fun talking to her, and we were all open to eache other. She even knows who *tooooot* is. hehe... When all that was over, Eirah and I went to National and then to Jollibee. We saw Mr. Macaraig, our old Guidance teacher. I was shocked because for the frist time he did something more than nod his head, he actually stayed to chat with us! He doesn't talk that fast anymore too! hehe...

That's it! Maybe this day wasn't so bad after all!

JUST PLAIN BORING

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 07:49:05 GMT

Well... I can't believe I'm saying this but, I WISH I WERE IN SCHOOL RIGHT NOW! At least I do something in school... I can't wait until Monday!

BACK TO SQUARE ONE

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 13:55:59 GMT

Okay, so I finally learned how to edit my journal. It's okay once you get the hang of it.

About today... Well... Nothing much! But on my way home I saw Raizza in Mcdo. I was sooooo glad to see her! It's been a really long time since we last saw each other.

I seem to like going to school now, too. hehe... Yeah its weird, but there's something that keeps me wanting to go to school. NO IT"S NOT BECAUSE OF A GUY. hehe... It's fun being a senior, just hope things will continue to be like this until March!